30 days now

hi marza,
30 days today and we so miss you everyday,every minute you are not here.
Kids are all right, Mary just got back tonight from her stay up in Ariel with
a friend, and it was a MAN, he is a ranger for the parks. Very nice man and you might know him, Tom. She had a good time and he even called her when he returned home.

Its nice to see her happy wish I could be so happy in that kind a way. But that will come. Virgil and I did a roof over the weekend so you can say we were up just a bit closer to you than most. Did you see us try to be roofer's? Yes we pulled it off and everyone was happy.

And then there's Gail what can you say when you can hear her way up there. So you already know. I told her that I don't believe for one minute that it has hit any of your children yet the way its going to hurt later. It could'nt. I know for myself the you are my power and pain.

Power being that you give me the strength to cope with all I have going on and the pain that I feel is a good loving pain. I know that when it is all said and done the four of us will get it done. Damn we would look like fools if we didn't. When one little lady like yourself did it for all four of us by yourself for us.

Anyway we miss you and I slept in your spot in your bed I knew you didn't mind cuz you let me sleep from 9:00 at night till after 12 in the noon hour. I needed that. I cried myself to sleep that night and I don't think I moved very much, thanks

we love and miss you
let everyone know that we said hey
and I know soon will all be together
I look forward to it and always like writing you

love ya ricci

Easter Sunday

when you have lost someone close to you
like I have recently
you think back

what could I have done or what
could I have said to
the kindest, nicest person
I've ever known?

I believe this Poem to
my friend Marza McCarty
says it all

Happy Easter Sunday


Now that it's Easter
I really have to say
Thank you for all that you did
In your quiet efficient way


I don't know how I would
have cope
Without you by my side

the things you taught me
and the loved you showed me
my life would be
A very bumpy ride

As the seasons come and go
And Easter time arrives
It takes the Spring season
To make me realize

If I did not take the time to say
I appreciate all the kind words
of wisdom the hospitality

We miss you and all of the above
So have a Happy Easter,

And lots of love to you

ricci

if tears could

If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know

But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store

Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay

goodbye to you marza you will be missed and always loved

Goodbye to you Marza you will be missed and always loved
as any person who just as you did in their lives.

Such an inspiration to the many and you didn't even realize
it. I know I told you many times that you had more knowledge
than any person I have met in my 50 years on earth. You make
so happy Marza that when you left after two days I ended up
in the hospital myself. Yea you know where (nut house).

I was depressed because my couch buddy was gone. Then after
talking to the people that are supposed to have all the
answers it hit me. I wasn't drinking enough beer. lol..

Marza you had a beautiful ceremony people all said the same thing
of course just like your baby pictures "she was the cutest, she
was everything a good mother and wife could be". Now you are with
Julie and George you parents and sister, it going to be hard Marza

We all love you so much and the girls made this for you its your
hard drive of your last living life. I have seen it at least a dozen times
and it gets better every time. God Bless You for letting me into your
life. I always cherished the times we talked laughed and even when
you scolded me.

Ricci

and now we lay her down to rest

April 4th 2009 we lay her down to rest

LOSING SOMEONE YOU LOVE

When we lose a loved one
A part of us dies also.

For as much as the one you loved
did not belong to you...
your heart belonged to them.
You were entwined with one another.

You wonder... how shall I walk
in this world.. a world that...
no longer holds those footprints
of my loved one.

You will wonder
how can this world can go on..
when your world has stopped.

In the language of tears...
You wiil speak to your loved one...
as your heart tries to comprehend...
what it cannot.

But wait... the power of love
will give you comfort.

In the hearts of those who love you...
and surround you with their caring hearts...
love can be found.

Friends who have been in
your place of sadness...
will be there
for you now.

Your grief will become your traveling companion...
the part of you...
that is strong... deep, and compassionate.

Peace will come
to you again
as you accept the mysteries
that are a part of life.

In time this veil of sorrow will lift...
and you will realize
what is most sacred
is the love we share
with the ones we love.

Soon... peace will come to
your heart...
and you will know...
that this love...
is an eternal
gift.

Love lives forever!

Marza McCarthy

My good friend lay in a hospital bed in Portland Oregon
and she is not coming home. Marza McCarthy went there with the advice
from doctors that she would have five to ten years to
live if she did the surgery.

CANCER

I seen what she looked like after the first surgery and wished
I had not. With her face the size of an official basketball and blood
running from her nose and mouth, it hurts for me to see my friend lay helplessly and not a thing
I could do for her.

Marza has had four surgeries since 3/12/09 the last
earlier today. Doctors ask the family if they wanted to pull the plug
as the surgery only gives her a week to lay painlessly. Damn you Doctors anyway
for taking my friend and having her and her family go through this. The pain the
tears from the people that love Marza.

I don't think she will ever know how much she is loved no thanks to advice from
doctors.

At 77 years old she is a mother of 4 grandmother of 10 and great grandmother
of 18. Marza loved doing Pen & Ink drawings of lighthouses around the Northwest.
She was never one to brag about her drawings, in which took anywhere between
90 to 120 hours for each one. Without a mistake these drawings are without
flaws.

I ask for prayers for my friend from readers of my blog
for
Marza McCarthy

God bless you for taking time to read this